Still got nothing

I've heard it said that patience is a virtue, but it has never been one of my stronger points. Do you suppose this is a test? Meant to see how patient I can be. Ah well, I feel just sick and yet I also feel that this could be pivotal; in some way very important to how I choose to live the rest of my life. It doesn't seem like it should be that earth shattering, does it? Maybe it's just the frustration of not knowing what to do next...